After Final

Depress, depress and depress!! that is what i'm experiencing right now.
i know that everyone is happy when the final is OVER and most of them even celebrated it.
That is what normally they do but not me. Even though i can celebrate it at any time any where or with and one but my heart is still wondering for something which is not in my control.
Some may say i am stupid for what happened but i am still a human being.
we can easily say but can we really force them to do what you want them to do?
i think no people. we can see what they are suffering but we do not know what inside them. we cannot force them to listen to us. most of us i must say can give advise but you do not need to force them to do exactly what you want.

Enough with the chit chatting,
here's the truth.
supposedly 4th of May is my 1st year of anniversary with my love life Zahuren or also know as UREN! haha i know his name is kinda weird. that TURNS ME OFF when i first get to know him.
We are actually in a big fight. This is how it happens  ;
i found out that he is texting with other girl which i know is very ULU and KAMPONG from his friend but i was not sure of the truth. Yeah i might listen but i'm sure i cannot rely on it 100%.
So when his "friend" told me that he had gotten the assurance from he HIMSELF, then i started to being so PUSHY and became very very ANNOYING.
on that morning after he got off from his work, i kept texting him saying that I MUST MEET HIM AND I MUST! then he did not reply then i became paranoid. so i was sort of like pushing him to reply my text then i kept calling him and such. LOL ( i know i can be annoying)
then that morning, the truth revealed. well not bout that KAMPONG girl. about me.
whatever he did by ignoring me was because of i became very pushy and very annoying. that is basically my problem.
From the beginning up till now i have still not changed and if you look on the but for test ( applying the tort law    ) if it wasnt me who did this first then he wont do it. ( errr i think that is what the but for test mean KOT )

So since that morning, we argued punye argued punye argued, with him using the harsher word so i was thinking did i deserved that? hmmm..